Receiving messages in my inbox has given me the idea to explain why I have changed my name to Becoming Jayne. It is not that I am in the process of becoming my middle name. It may seem like that at face value but there is more to it.
Growing into a successful adult required someone telling me how to think, dress, act, smell, learn, etc. I was so close to having the American Dream. My career was at the tips of my fingers. My home life was the American Dream and I was in a private college and on my way to getting my B.S. at a well known University.
After six months of shedding the ideas and expectations of the world, I became me. Saschia Jayne Johnson. Unapologetically me. During that shedding process, I titled myself as “Unbecoming Jayne.”I bared my imperfections to the world. I learned it was ok to be confused, to not agree with others, to fall in love with poetry and write it even if others thought I wasn’t good enough. I picked Jayne because it was my middle name. It was the Center of my title. The in between nobody likes. I also picked Jayne because the name Jayne has been known to be plain and my mom thought I was something special so she added a Y. I am not superior to any other human but I am unique, that’s my power.
Now, that I am in this place with myself, I have already become Jayne. I am Jayne. I am not becoming Jayne. But I added the becoming because this is a new place for me. I am learning to be Jayne. Though I have unbecome what everybody else thinks I should be, I’m still learning to thrive here. It’s not an easy place to stay.